Nothings worse then knowing your not good enoungh and knowing your probably never going to be.

As i sit here in my tears relizing all my fears
I relize im never going to be good enough for you
I sit here crying wanting to die
For reasons only i know why
Im not that girl that makes you smile
Im not even the girl worth your while
Im not pretty or even smart

---Sorri i'll finish it later when im not crying.

Updating if anyone cares...

I won't ever forgive myself for falling in love and not telling anyone. For keeping it all to myself and holding it all back. For not caring what they all thought. For not relizing from the start the love isn't all its cracked up to be. For believeing you could love me. For not beliveing in good bye. For not trusting them to know. For not letting my feelings show. For not being the right girl. For not being all that i can be. For not being your world. But most of all i wont ever forgive myself for forgeting all of those things and telling you.

All The Diamonds and All The Pearls wont ever add up to the beauty of me and my girls!

When your friends let you down and and your tired of their shit...turn to AIM...theres always that magical little BLOCK button!

All I want is the perfect guy. Is that to much to ask for?
All I want is the greatest guy I've ever met. Is that to much to ask for?
All I want is the nicest guy I've ever met. Is that to much to ask for?
All I want is the sweetest guy in this world. Is that to much to ask for?
All I need is a guy that loves me. And i guess thats to much to ask for.

alrighty i made some of these soo...no dissing [please]

Hanna Banana

OKAY! Sorri for not updating but hey..not like you care...OKAY here i go!

The Quote Of My Life that He Should Read: d0Eznt iit suck whEn hE kn0wz just h0w u fEEl b0ut hiim nd hE d0Eznt d0 a thiing b0ut iit cuz hE jus d.0.E.z.n.t.*.c.a.r.E

Fav. Quote and O So Me: You wanna know what the truth is? I still love you...and I probably will love you for a very long time...but I cant just be your buddy because as much as I enjoy the concept of being "just friends" in reality its a bizarre form of torture and I'm just not willing to participate in it..so right now what I wanna do is just move on and get over you....and the only way for me to do that is to not be around you anymore...

Thanks For Your Friendship & Thanks For Your Smile Thanks For The Love You Showed ME Though It Was Only For A While* My Heart Was Broken & Yes My Eyes Did Cry* But Thats All Over Now Cus I Learned To Say Goodbye!!*

If you're bribed, stand strong If you're threatened, fight If you're tempted, resist
If you're struck down, get up If you lose, be noble If you win, be gracious If you die, be remembered If you live, be generous For that is the way of a champion!

i  h i d e  a broken heart
behind a laughing face
even though i said i`m over you
no one will evertake your place.

somewhere between the procrastination, the homework, the friendships, and the nasty cafeteria food, the calls to old friends, the i miss yous, and the i love yous, and what are we doing tonight`s? somewhere between all of the changed and growing and the skipping classes, the studying for tests, and the pretending to be studying for tests, and the downriight not studying for tests, i forgot.  ..i forgot what it meant to cry. i forgot that pretending to be happy doesn`t make you happy. i forgot that pretending to be smart doesn`t make youu smart. and that pretending to be okay doesn`t make youu okay. i forgot that you can`t just forget the past in fear of our future.. i forgot that you can`t control falling in love.. and that youu can`t make yourself fall in love. i learned.. i learned that i can love.. i learned that it`s okay to mess up. and it`s okay to ask for help.. and it`s okay to feel like crap.. i learned it`s okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day.. that somehow they`ll make it all better. i learned that sometimes the things you want most you can`t have. i learned that the greatest thing about school isn`t going to be who is most popular or going to the parties..not even the hook ups.. it`s the friendships.. which means taking chances. i learned that sometimes the things we forgive and forget are the things which we most need to talk out.. i learned that letters from friends are the most important thing.. and that sending cards to your friends makes youu feel better.. but basically, i just learned that my friends, both old and new, are the most important people to me in the world. <3

it's funny how hello is always accompanied with goodbye,
it's funny how good memories can start to make you cry.
it's funny how forever never seems to really last,
it's funny how much you'd lose if you forgot about your past.
it's funny how friends can just leave you when you're down,
it's funny how when you need someone they're never around.
it's funny how people change and think they`re so much better,
it's funny how many lies can be packed in one "love letter".
it's funny how people forgive even though they can't forget,
it's funnyhow one night can contain so much regret.
it's funny how ironic life turns out to be,
but the funniest part of all, none of that's funny to me..

OKAY GUYS! Really you need too Let me know if i'm just waisting my time or not..I know that was the first entry in all and its not all that great but COME ON! I WANT FEED BACK! Now today i am putting some Icons on here thanks to Matt! YOUR AWESOME MATT! His icon site is soo Great..you need to check it out..Heres The Code to his site..Matt's Icons

OKAY! FIRST AWESOME ENTRY!!!

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Song: Going Crazy by Natalie

Song Code: Going Crazy

                                                     QUOTES!

I Love you..but I can't admit it.
It's sometimes hard to say "I love you" to the one you love.
But they don't seem to realize you.
Or even have feelings for you.
So how can you make this happened?
How can you make it come true?
Every night,
I've wished upon one fallen star.
That someday,
You'll fall for me...
But every night when I saw your shimmering eyes,
telling me to forget you,
and just to let you go..
I felt myself fall into peices.
Not just my heart,
but my whole life.
All I ever think about,
was just you,
and the way you would react
if I had said "I love you"
But now...
There are just times and chances to just dream and wish.
My heart couldn't give up on all the love I've fallen for you.
But I'm just hoping..
that inside this lonely dream of mine,
could just fade inside your heart.
Even if my love meant nothing to you.
but just friendship..
I don't want to just be friends,
But why didn't you believe me?
Why wouldn't you accept me as who I am?
Even how much I've fallen for you..
inside my heart would always be an image of you.
Until someday you found the one you'll love forever..
then I guess it's time for me to give up on you..
I should've just admitted that "I Loved You"
Than letting my hopes for you go...
Now that you've gone far away..
All I'll ever do for you is just pray,
that someday,
You and your love will truely and forever live in happiness..
If only I've just admitted that I loved you at the first place..

                                                                                                                     
The Perfect Friend
One who knows,
when to leave you alone.
One stays,
when the truth is known.
One who gives for no reason at all.
The one you hang onto,
when you fall.
One who lets you laugh and cry.
One who give you,
the things you can't buy.
One who accepts you,
as a wiseman and fool,
and think that you're cool.
One who's arm you'll hold on a cliff,
One whose words you don't have to shift.
Simply a person who's always there,
with words and silence,
love and care.
The one who stays way past the end.
is the one you can always can depend
                                                                                                                

Invisible
If no one realized me,
See me,
or even noticed I was there ..
then I must be invisible to them..
Maybe,
no one just cares.
So rather than being alive,
I'd rather be invisible,
for those who don't realized me in vision.
I thought I was a happy person all along.
Now I guess,
I wasn't visible to them.
Who would care for me?
I guess no one.
How painful does this feel?
It feels more than knives pealing my skin off..
How much does this pain cause ..
'Cause I would surely sell it away..
Leting others see,
how painful this is..

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When one door opens..I hope your on the other side!

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The minute you feel like givin up...think of all the reasons-> why you ( held on ) for so long

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Sometimes some people run away to be alone, but sometimes they run away to see if you care enough to follow them.

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The worst feeling in the world, is loving someone when they dont love you back. Your heart aches each time you see him and no matter how deep you look into his eyes....you'll never reach his heart.

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Sorri guys i have to go! HOPE YOU LIKE THEM!

I want atleast 5 comments and 5 subscribers!

LOVE YOU

HANNA BANANA!